My name is Caleigh, I currently attend Texas A&M at Galveston and plan to transfer to College Station next semester. I'm interested in either pursuing art or fire fighting, following in the footsteps of my dad. I've always been more of the tom-boy type, into sports and the outdoors. I've always been the tough kid, growing up around my brother who is 11.5 years older than me. When I was 6 he was in high school and participated in football. We frequently had large linebackers tromping through the house and with guys like that running around, ya can't be all frills and cute all the time. As I got older being a tom-boy wasn't the most attractive thing about me. In fact, I was not attractive at all really. I've been overweight most of my life and it called for negative attention from the fellow classmates around me. It took and sometimes still takes a big toll on me.
Anyway, over the years I became somewhat addicted to the internet. I found that it was a place I was generally accepted. No one really cared if you were fat or skinny. It was a place that I could show my personality without worrying about what people would think really. I started opening myself up to people which in turn tended to hurt me even more. At one point I believed I was in a relationship which turned out to be one big joke. The laugh was on me. I started to lose myself. I resorted to self harm (scratching to the point of breaking the skin and a few cuts) if I failed to show people how good I could be and that I was worth something. I started to believe that I should take up the space I did on the Earth. My sophomore year I planned to overdose. Something told me to stop. I don't remember exactly what.. but I didn't go through with it. I decided I would try to put it all behind me and live for my future. I opened myself up to a few friends at school, which took a while. Then I signed up for a dating site online... This past year I found the best person in the world. In October of 2012 we started talking. Over time I found myself falling for him. The only problem was that he lives in South Carolina while I'm here in Texas. We continued to talk and eventually we decided to propose "serious us" as we like to call it. That was back in April 2012. It is now January 2013, 9 months and a few days later and we are still going strong! We've visited each other twice and we are planning future trips!
Walker is my rock, my best friend, and my fresh breath of air. He makes me laugh and smile all the time. He supports me and my decisions when I am able to make them. (I'm terrible at making decisions) He pushes me to do and be the best I can be. He knows what I am capable of which sometimes I lose sense of. He is always there for me to give me advice and help me through difficult times. I know I have someone that loves me for being me. That thought makes me the happiest girl in the world. Sure we didn't find each other in the traditional going out and searching kind of way, but we found each other. I don't regret one second of it. He knows this and I tell him all the time anyway but he really did find me at my weakest point. I was definitely ready to give up on love. 100% ready to accept that I would be alone for the entirety of my life. I know that sounds super dramatic but that is exactly how I thought it would happen. He pulled me out of the biggest slump I have ever faced in my life and I will never be able to thank him enough. The day before I left South Carolina last week he told me that he had a problem. A little worried as to why he was telling me this just before leaving I asked him what it was. He just smiled at me and told me that he was hopelessly in love with me. It reminded me of when I told him that my problem was his smile, his laugh, the way he turned my day around in a heartbeat. I questioned that being a problem to which he replied that it was my problem and that I'd be stuck with him. It's a problem that I don't mind having one bit.
I am a teenager.
I am a college student.
I almost killed myself.
I found my real friends Junior year of high school.
I found love online.
I'm just your average girl.
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